on suicidal people

if people knew that suicidal people are suicidal,
would they change their views about them?
will they think that those suicidal people are pathetic and weak?
will they sympathize with them and have a little more consideration?
will they choose their words so as not to offend them?

suicide is a serious matter.
who on their right mind will think about killing themselves?
i'm not talking about suicide where the self-killer blackmails another.
it's more about suicide where the suicidal person is fed up with whatever is going on with his/her life
and wants to end it abruptly.
because he/she thinks and has decided that there's nothing left to do and to happen in his/her life.
that everything is just a waste of time.
that he/she is tired of living his/her daily life the same way as any other day.

do you think it will change the perception of other people if they knew that that person is suicidal?
will they think lowly of him/her?
or will they be more concerned about the suicidal person?

have you ever thought about ending your own life? for good?
i have.
and i still do.
lately, i've been thinking a lot about it.
but i keep thinking... no, i can still go on.
i can still live.
i can still endure.
i still can.

but,
any day now,
i might give up thinking that i still can.

...

is this early goodbye?
or shall we meet again some other time?

on being alone

of course i know this much
i'm alone
i've succeeded in breaking all of my  ties
at least, those that i thought i had
it's not too bad being alone
really.
it's not too bad.